I was only 39 years old… much too young to be dealing with a
critically ill parent. How do I find
long term care for her? Do I take care
of her at my own house? What about my
three kids, aged 4, 9, and 12, two of whom I was homeschooling? We were in the process of selling our house
and building a new one. How could I get
the house ready to sell, handle the details of building a new house, take care
of my husband and my kids, and take care of my mom in the way she deserved?
It was late and I was exhausted. A million worried thoughts swirled through my
head as I drove in the dark around 285 to my home. And out of the darkness, I saw a sign on the
side of the road. Not a DOT approved sign,
but a hand painted sign on rough hewn wood that read “TRUST JESUS.”
It was like the Lord was
speaking directly to me. That was the
solution to it all! Did I know all the
answers? Absolutely not! I could barely drive my car with all the
turmoil in my mind. But Jesus did. He knew what was happening. He knew His plan for my mom, and He knew His
plan for me.
That same solution is as
valid today as it was 15 years ago.
Jesus is not surprised about the coronavirus. He’s not unable to heal you, unable to
provide for you, unable to protect you.
As a matter of fact, He can lead you through every pitfall and every
minefield, now in this crisis and every day.
During that crisis period in
my life, I would ask Jesus what to do every day. One day, I would hear Him say in my spirit,
“Call the bank… you’re about to be overdrawn.” (I had just taken over my mom’s
finances, and they were a mess.) The
next day, I would hear Him say, “start cleaning the house… a realtor will call
at noon wanting to show the house to some prospective buyers.” And sure enough, that’s what would happen. Another day, He would instruct me to call
Mom’s doctors about something to do with her healthcare. Every day He directed
my steps.
Did you know that that kind
of daily direction is available to us everyday, not just when we are in a
crisis? Jesus wants the kind of
relationship with us that is that close, that familiar. Just like sitting down with your spouse or
your kids, having a conversation about what the schedule is for the day, Jesus
wants to have that conversation with us.
Think about it. The Creator and
Sustainer of the universe wants to guide your steps! That’s amazing!
One day, my mom started
telling her nurses and her doctors, “My Father has made a way for me to go
home!” I thought she was talking about
the conversation I had with her that we would move her to my house, putting a
hospital bed in our office downstairs so I could care for her at home. But that’s not what she meant.
After two weeks in the
hospital, she was moved into a hospice facility. It was supposed to be just for a short time,
until a long term care facility opened up.
But the first night she was in hospice, one of the workers told me that
it wouldn’t be long now because my mom’s physical functions were shutting
down. I was stunned! I had no idea that she was dying. But indeed that was what was happening.
I walked into my mom’s room
late one afternoon, after the nursing staff had cleaned her up from an accident. My mom looked at me as clearly as she could
and said, “Monica, I want to make it perfectly clear that I will not live like
this.”
Now for those of you who
didn’t know my mom, you need to understand that Gloria took her personal
hygiene very seriously. She was always
put together: hair, makeup, clothing, jewelry.
Being dirty wasn’t tolerated. And
Gloria was a take charge kind of person.
If she told you to do something, you did it. And apparently she had that same sort of
relationship with Jesus. She decided she
wanted to die, and she did. That
conversation happened on Monday, and late Friday night she was gone.
I continued to TRUST JESUS
through the next days and weeks as we celebrated my mom’s life, buried her, and
closed out her estate. He guided me
through that entire difficult process. Step
by step, day by day.
And as time went on and the
crisis passed, I forgot to ask Him everyday to guide my steps. And I made some missteps that I could have
avoided. So my encouragement to you
today is two-fold:
1) TRUST JESUS. He knows.
He cares. He can help you.
2) Do it
EVERYDAY. Now in this Covid-19
crisis. And when the crisis is
over. He’s faithful. He’s good.
He’s wise. He loves you and He
can guide you.
We did sell our house. We did move into our beautiful new home. And hanging in the foyer of our home is a
framed collage. In the collage is a
photo of our new home. Another picture
shows our family on the front porch. Also
framed is a list of the promises that God gave me to confess and believe for
our new home, as a testimony and reminder that God is faithful to his
promises. The last item in the collage
is a Christmas card that my mom wrote before she had the procedure that caused
her stroke. In her distinctive
handwriting, she wrote, “I wish you God’s blessing on the building of your new
house and abundant prosperity in 2005.
Love, Mom.” Thank you,
Jesus. And thank you, Mom.

